Two young brothers on a hovercraft

just went to dinner with brianna, sokhun, and chuizzler. chuizzler is one of my favorite teachers/human beings even though he makes fun of me all the time. last night i drank m-m-m-m-m-mimosas with mel v. and olivia and leopold. leopold don't drink though. he's a feline. we also dyed our clothes purple. i have forgotten how to speak english!

-having some house anxiety for next year, really want to get a nice northeast portland home with mel vegan but i don't know how long either of us will live in portland
-going home to l.a. on wednesday, seeing fotc at amoeba on thursday, sleepover at callista's on friday so that we can all have our A.I.S. (ass in seat) at five am on saturday morning for coachella, then i have a job interview on sunday for that beach counselor job, then monday morning at six am i fly back to portland. YAY

i'm real excited to see mgmt. (along with a bunch of others but today i am feeling mgmt the most. i've warmed up to the lineup, let me tell you.)

DANCE DANCE i missed the hybrid animal party last night, which is kind of a shame but i am working on this ten page paper and i had fun with mel vegan anyway, just doing homework. (not being sarcastic.) apparently matthew hamilton huff dressed up as a sleazy 80's woman, when brianna asked him which animal he was he said "i'm a cougar!"

i miss you how are you.

a lot of those.

love, d.

well here is an update:
special projects club makes me happy, last week's dinner party was at meredith's house in north portland and it was really great! we all gave our life story and ate strange vegetables and i got so nervous. i'm hanging out with verhines in a bit over a week in seattle, my phone drowned but ben got me a new one because he is nice, last night mel's roommate got drunk and high for the first time and at first it was kind of funny but it quickly disintegrated into a really sad mental breakdown thing and i couldn't handle so i put the mamas and papas on and danced around with mel, my 5 month old computer broke and it isn't my fault and i'm really upset and i dont want to talk about it, i have been real shy lately and matthew huff invited us to play charades at some classy waffle bar joint in se but i didn't want to play because of my crippling shyness and it sucked to be in my brain, yesterday we had a tiny brunch in mel vegan's apt. with seely, and later on i fell sleep while mel v. watched the royal tenembaums. when i woke up leopold the cat was cuddled up behind me and i put my face real close to his, he touched his nose to mine, blinked, then looked away and my heart exploded! that's all i have for an update. i hope it was enough.

you're so nice and you're so smart you're such a good friend i have to break your heart i'll tell you that i love you then i'll tear your world apart just pretend i didn't tear your world apart. sounds like a plan. i am the one with the hairline fractured tiny miniscule percentage of a heart person here.

i've been getting more and more ok with things as i get closer to summer

summer!!!!!!!!

but first

seattle, then seattle!!! then, l.a.!!! then, coachella!!!!!!!! then, summer!!!!

tomorrow i will try to block things out and fill in the suspiciously empty seats with bottles of that rasberry peach smoothie stuff from urban grind that shit is gooood. someone came into the libraire today who is a singer in some band and he looked like an l.a. person. i am so vague. anyway i changed my work schedule so that i work at the libraire on tuesdays and thursdays now. tomorrow in time arts we will be listening to my audio piece which is not a song. it is an audio piece. that samples sam cooke, ted haggard, squealing grey foxes, and richard simmons. i will not hide my nervousssusnesss. then in adcs i'm going to share my box of hair. and then i will "draw messy." and then i will go to patrick's mom's school to do something? scope out some space for a show.

that's all i don't sound enthusiastic about my lfie at all but this is mostly because there is nothing yummy to drink in my house, only popsicle-juice. i crave chocolate soy milk and rasberry peach at all times. bye

i am wearing shorts, shorts bring me joy

tomorrow i'm helping nan in her studio for forty bucks and lunch and nan time.

i don't know what to tell you

i miss lauren and verhines and rachel and everyone oh so much!

special projects club fills me with joy

today we had a meeting on top of the ecotrust building, the sunroof, and meredith brought the MOST DELICIOUS COOKIES IN THE WORLD. here is a picture of me manning the booth from our last special project on valentine's day:





tomorrow we are having the first Advanced Placement Show and Tell Dinner at brianna's apt. i am going to get real wasted.

tonight i went to the red and black cafe to see kimya dawson play, so so so good. everything about it. i was sitting right in front of her, and everyone else who played (babies included), they were so charming and genuine. at the end everyone sang along to loose lips. i am so shy again. i regressed so hard into shy darya. afterwards i shook her hand (too timid for a hug?) and said "hiiiii i'm darya i'm the girl that emailed you about the library show" and she was like "yeah let's do that some time!!" and then i asked her to draw on my sketchbook. and she did.

and then

and then and then and then and then and then then then then

then i lost my sketchbook. either at the bus stop or on the bus. what the shit is my problem.

FUCK MAN

so diva said that my voice sounds different, which makes sense but also makes me feel a little sad in the nostalgic way. moving on.

hanging out a lot with brianna and mel, which i thoroughly enjoy, rachel weed is supposed to come up on wednesday?

everything is ambiguous and in gray-space. today was the first day of second semester, 8-3. my 11:30-3 class was slow slow slow but still something to be excited about because mel and roommate are in it. roommate came back from break looking like an attractive boy! well she was also backlit. but iw as v. convinced before i realized it was her. we're getting a kitty!!! it is so cold in here and there is ice on the sidewalks. my purple boots might need to go away for a little bit.

today was an 8. i did the right amount of things i didn't/did want to do. i walked to the daycare center that i want to work at. sooooo swanky. almost too swanky. but it would be so cute to work there. then me, b-gurl, and mel hobbled over to william temple and i bought tons of frames and an accidental neck owl. from b-gurl's apartment i got a pbr with sticky gun labels on it that say "i smell vajay-jay. titties. and sex." on it, for my future fireplace mantle. maybe i will have it bronzed!

i''m being such a needy bastard.

ON THE BRIGHT SIDE, between lots of for-no-reason frantic phone calls between me, lauren, and verhines, we decided to go only for saturday coachella (EVEN THOUGH COACHELLA 08 AS A WHOLE SUXXXXX) and to go to nyc in august instead of june, for a week. and me and vajayjay are looking up more festivals to go to. with my invisible money.

mmmmm

last night was weird, started to get real sad in the car but couldn't put my finger on it. i look like a sailor in my navy stripes and white boots. i almost got a balloon tattoo but tattoos are for life y'all! i'm scared. it will happen though. i go back to portland on monday and b-gurl is gon be picking me up from the flying metal nest.

love, d.

i'm wearing a fuzzy bathrobe and listening to john legend. what has happened to me.

break is winding down, :) and :'(. i'm so excited for new classes but i'm getting so attached to the sunshine...

i got four new dresses, i'm getting so excited for coachella and it's only january, i'm going out to din din with ben somewhere possibly fancy. ooer. i just want to go to fritto misto.

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cleo looks like she haz down syndromez

really tremendously eventful three days, will take 3 days to fully grasp and absorb all of the happenings. lots of crying, good kind and bad kind
tomorrow i'm gonna go see the melvins probably
not like i care too much about the whole deal
broke my veganism, decided to be vegetarian in l.a. and vegan in portland because i am lazy.

i'm still not done packing
i am entering my winter behavior stage and it's whatever
i just want to paint! and draw! and sew.

so i'm coming home on monday, christmas eve.

what i want for christmas/life:

rachel reid to move up to portland and make art with me all the time
new glasses
better time management/work ethic...

yeah. i need to get a second job second semester.

mtv what have you done to me saved my soul set me free set me free what have you done to me i can't breathe i can't see

i'm wearing black, and a skirt

i wear pants now too

called henry, talked for a long time and cried but not for any bad reasons. more like, missing people and things and being stressed. but good stress.

watched "searching for angela shelton," that made me cry about seven times. watch it okay. it's about this lady, named angela shelton, who goes across the states looking for other angela sheltons. out of the 40 that she talked to, 24 had been raped, beaten, or abused in some way. the original angela shelton was molested by her stepmom, father, and stepbrother.

so i cried a lot today

hugs for everyone

blue like nevermind!

ok everyone it's finals week crunchtime

i just need to get past thursday then i'll be in the clear.

last night me and brianna stayed up til six making jokes about ted haggard. (he was her pastor...GOLD) then we went to "the real world...clackamas." ay dios mio.

me: i'm lonely as hell
him: soon you'll be lonely in my company

i've been polkadotting patrick's office. today i did the typewriter and the top of the side table. my life isn't very exciting nowadays. then i did seven lines of coke and ate 8 gushers and took a train to seattle and i had tea with carmen electra and julian lennon, then howard dean stopped by and took me to get a tattoo of the three stooges peering into my anus. C YA

been wastin' bunches of money. i spent thirty dollars on a dress that i ended up slicing mercilessly.
but i diiiid get christmas presents for dad, grandma, ily, and izzy. and i'm working on drawings. i have two. i got the perfectest present for izzy!

this week, then next week, then i'm home! for a whole month!

do you guys talk to your parents every day?

current mood: DOMINATING SCHOOL YEAHHAAHHAHAHA

so it's five am and i'm still drawing. i think that for all of my good friends i will make drawings based off of the book: 1000 Dessous-A History of Lingerie. I am into the vintage porn section vs. the shiny slick 90's erotic plastic underwear. yech. anyway these drawings will be part of their christmas presents. along with random photos and lists and handy dandy things in a customized envelope.
at 11:15 on 12/8 me and mel l. ate rice candy and watched the imagine music video, and then we watched mind games. before and after we ate vegan french fries. vegan cheese is weird