Two young brothers on a hovercraft

i'm writing emma an email
i just had a crazy spiritual experience
i am confused
i am going to be a turkey/peacock for halloween
i am struggling with experiments in drawing because the teacher picks on me but at the same time i find it really exciting to have such an uncomfortable dynamic with a teacher. because usually teachers and i are friends.
i am trying to make some changes.

livejournal,
love, d.

special projects club fills me with joy

today we had a meeting on top of the ecotrust building, the sunroof, and meredith brought the MOST DELICIOUS COOKIES IN THE WORLD. here is a picture of me manning the booth from our last special project on valentine's day:





tomorrow we are having the first Advanced Placement Show and Tell Dinner at brianna's apt. i am going to get real wasted.

tonight i went to the red and black cafe to see kimya dawson play, so so so good. everything about it. i was sitting right in front of her, and everyone else who played (babies included), they were so charming and genuine. at the end everyone sang along to loose lips. i am so shy again. i regressed so hard into shy darya. afterwards i shook her hand (too timid for a hug?) and said "hiiiii i'm darya i'm the girl that emailed you about the library show" and she was like "yeah let's do that some time!!" and then i asked her to draw on my sketchbook. and she did.

and then

and then and then and then and then and then then then then

then i lost my sketchbook. either at the bus stop or on the bus. what the shit is my problem.

FUCK MAN

so diva said that my voice sounds different, which makes sense but also makes me feel a little sad in the nostalgic way. moving on.

hanging out a lot with brianna and mel, which i thoroughly enjoy, rachel weed is supposed to come up on wednesday?

everything is ambiguous and in gray-space. today was the first day of second semester, 8-3. my 11:30-3 class was slow slow slow but still something to be excited about because mel and roommate are in it. roommate came back from break looking like an attractive boy! well she was also backlit. but iw as v. convinced before i realized it was her. we're getting a kitty!!! it is so cold in here and there is ice on the sidewalks. my purple boots might need to go away for a little bit.

today was an 8. i did the right amount of things i didn't/did want to do. i walked to the daycare center that i want to work at. sooooo swanky. almost too swanky. but it would be so cute to work there. then me, b-gurl, and mel hobbled over to william temple and i bought tons of frames and an accidental neck owl. from b-gurl's apartment i got a pbr with sticky gun labels on it that say "i smell vajay-jay. titties. and sex." on it, for my future fireplace mantle. maybe i will have it bronzed!

i''m being such a needy bastard.

ON THE BRIGHT SIDE, between lots of for-no-reason frantic phone calls between me, lauren, and verhines, we decided to go only for saturday coachella (EVEN THOUGH COACHELLA 08 AS A WHOLE SUXXXXX) and to go to nyc in august instead of june, for a week. and me and vajayjay are looking up more festivals to go to. with my invisible money.

mmmmm

last night was weird, started to get real sad in the car but couldn't put my finger on it. i look like a sailor in my navy stripes and white boots. i almost got a balloon tattoo but tattoos are for life y'all! i'm scared. it will happen though. i go back to portland on monday and b-gurl is gon be picking me up from the flying metal nest.

love, d.

i'm wearing a fuzzy bathrobe and listening to john legend. what has happened to me.

break is winding down, :) and :'(. i'm so excited for new classes but i'm getting so attached to the sunshine...

i got four new dresses, i'm getting so excited for coachella and it's only january, i'm going out to din din with ben somewhere possibly fancy. ooer. i just want to go to fritto misto.

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cleo looks like she haz down syndromez

i'm still not done packing
i am entering my winter behavior stage and it's whatever
i just want to paint! and draw! and sew.

so i'm coming home on monday, christmas eve.

what i want for christmas/life:

rachel reid to move up to portland and make art with me all the time
new glasses
better time management/work ethic...

yeah. i need to get a second job second semester.

mtv what have you done to me saved my soul set me free set me free what have you done to me i can't breathe i can't see

i'm wearing black, and a skirt

i wear pants now too

blue like nevermind!

ok everyone it's finals week crunchtime

i just need to get past thursday then i'll be in the clear.

last night me and brianna stayed up til six making jokes about ted haggard. (he was her pastor...GOLD) then we went to "the real world...clackamas." ay dios mio.

been wastin' bunches of money. i spent thirty dollars on a dress that i ended up slicing mercilessly.
but i diiiid get christmas presents for dad, grandma, ily, and izzy. and i'm working on drawings. i have two. i got the perfectest present for izzy!

this week, then next week, then i'm home! for a whole month!

do you guys talk to your parents every day?

current mood: DOMINATING SCHOOL YEAHHAAHHAHAHA

so it's five am and i'm still drawing. i think that for all of my good friends i will make drawings based off of the book: 1000 Dessous-A History of Lingerie. I am into the vintage porn section vs. the shiny slick 90's erotic plastic underwear. yech. anyway these drawings will be part of their christmas presents. along with random photos and lists and handy dandy things in a customized envelope.
at 11:15 on 12/8 me and mel l. ate rice candy and watched the imagine music video, and then we watched mind games. before and after we ate vegan french fries. vegan cheese is weird

fall focus week starts tomorrow! free lunch everyday and fun workshops and activitiessssss.
talked to ben today por telefono. did ltlym assignment with rachel through email. i have lots of glitter and yes! paste. yes! paste is so god damn cool. i am so worn out.

so, thanksgiving. landed lax @ 5, came home to zombie versions of mom and dad. they both got food poisoning at billy's deli this morning! que tragic. but my brother was alive. my mom is really cute. i forgot about her shrinking/me growing. my dad was trying really hard to stay awake, he wanted me to tell him about portland but i already talk to him everyday so i didn't exactly know what to say...so i repeated stories until he fell asleep.

so me and bro had a two person thanksgiving. it wasn't very ceremonious.





bro: mari, you've turned into such a god damn hippie.
me: no i haven't. pass the soymilk and shut up.
bro: do you realize what you just said?

then we drove up to sm, i gave lindsay a hug and possibly intruded on a family thing, (sorry!), and i wanted to go say hi to the bauman-murphys, to give kelsea a hug but bro was half slumped over the steering wheel with nausea. maybe he shouldn't have eaten those two giant cheeseburgers from carl's jr. before eating the turkey, one on one.

today is going to be an adventure. it's also buy nothing day. so don't!

love, d.

p.s. i love you!

p.s. again, talking to jake w. made me happy. it's really fun to see how people have changed, not jake specifically but all of us? i'm excited for the fyoocher.

things i am excited about:

wednesday to be over!
seeing my lovely toasty pies!
hiking/camping!
polka dotting patrick's office!
taking a nap in the library tomorrow!
HOME!!!
next semester!!
nyc in the summer with booty train!!

i don't know what to do with my hair. i haven't touched it since the haircuts by children thing in september. we have free haircuts at school next tuesday but i might just have krista shave the side for me. i think i will grow the left side out forever and eventually wear it in a long braid to whip people with.

i am wearing green and purple eyeshadow. i am talking so much about appearances.

yesterday krista and millie drove me to southeast to pick up my wonderfully lovely spectacular new Casiotone (for the painfully alone)! I got it off craigslist. 60 bucks for a 399 dollar keyboard! the lady, karen, was very nice and had two little girls and a disco ball above the dining room table and a special kind of backwards petting bunny that felt like velvet air. i'm maybe going to learn some tears for fears songs so that our homeless 80's cover band, Tears for Beers, will sound more deliberate and professional. haha.

special k with soy creamer and shredded coconut is amazing!

ok bye

there was some pretty bad saxophone action going on during lunch. it was of the so bad it's good variety. either way i think the whole lunchtime performance thing is pretty adorable. schools for schools had a bake sale and we made like sixty bucks, which isn't bad. maybe? i made some vegan cupcakes and i feel like there are only four vegans when i thought there were maybe 40. or maybe my cupcakes looked gross? soon i will walk to school again and draw nekkid people.

+opportunity for pnca students to be pusblished by city lights
+new dress
+new attitude-ish concerning emotional tightropes
+flight of the conchords
+getting along with parents
+veganism going well
+new microns
+falafel sandwiches
+excited about mel's scavenger hunt!
+miranda july and harrell fletcher on the 28th at powells!
+i am content to be by myself for the majority of the day for the first time since age 14
+lauren coming up in less than two weeks!
+my room
-my stomach hurts
-i didn't go to drawing today
-i could possibly still make it to class but i can't be bothered
-i can't work sewing machines
-crave mushroom/cheese pizza
-no clean clothes
-no money to see m.i.a.



all in all i think life is goign pretty smoothly. now that is said this i am going to wake up in the morning disoriented in a bathtub full of ice with stitches all over my body.